Come quickly, Lord!

Okay...so I've been feeling conflicted lately. Our youngest daughter, Victoria, turns 5 on Monday and starts Kindergarten in August. Virgil,II, our oldest, is 6 and is going to the 1st grade. We've always wanted more children but we seem to be at a cross roads... make that I seem to be at a crossroads. Virgil, Sr. is all ready to have more children. I'm still on the fence. Let's face it, Virgil,II and Victoria are exactly 13 months apart (yes...13 months, not quite sure how that happened). If we have one more child now we'll have to have another soon after (or else it'd be like they were an only child). Having children at this particular stage in our lives feels like we'll be starting all over again. I feel so removed from bottles, diapers, and late night feedings. Yet, when I see a newborn, I can't help but want another baby.

Then there's the whole career thing. Before going to law school I was a stay-at-home mom and loved it! I haven't had a full time job outside my home since 2003. Now that I can practice law full time I want more children and want to be at home with them. Lord, I'm going to need help to sort through these feelings. Come quickly, Lord!